thoughts for the day

Currently listening to: Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard

It's exactly 9:00pm in my time, December 3, 2006. One week from now, I'm turning 19 and I have a feeling that this is going to be my worst birthday celebration so far. I have a finals for my Introduction to Accounting on December 11, a day after my birthday. I guess I won't be able to enjoy my birthday after all. I'm turnung 19 and I still don't have a love life. So many people in the world and all I really need is one but it seems that this supposedly special person is nowhere to be found at the moment.

I feel so depressed because I don't have any idea what I am going to do with my life. A lot of people say that I'm going to be very rich someday. I have won academic related contests when I was in high school, I've won some contests in college and I have been a dean's lister once so far and still I feel something missing. And this black hole inside of me is starting to consume me. I have a feeling that I will be failing a course this term --- Introduction to Accounting ---, I'm not doing good in my other subjects, my thesismates hate me for being so careless and irresponsible, my barkada is starting to fall apart and there is someone I like so much but I don't have the courage to tell what my feelings are.

This Sunday, I was a total bum. I woke up around 11++ am and just watched TV the afternoon. I should be doing the activities that I should have passed in our Biology 1 Laboratory course months ago since all of the activities are due this Tuesday and we have an exam in our Biology 1 course tomorrow. I'm not sure but we might even have the exam in accounting tom evening since it was cancelled last thursday due to the typhoon Reming. Some of my classmates told me that it's either the exam will be on tuesday evening or just include it in the final exam for the course on December 11, 2006.

I was able to watch the replay of Samurai X : Reflection - Director's Cut. Most of it was a flashback of the series but it also gave an ending to the Samurai X series. It's sad that Kenshin/Shinta died in the arms of Kaoru but at least, he was able to be really happy in the end. I wonder, will I have the same ending?

Currently listening to: Huwag mo nang itanong by M.Y.M.P.