ending the third week

a lot of things happen in a day... definitely a lot more in a week... and so on...

it has been a while since the last time i blogged.... one of the reasons being is that our internet connection was just restored yesterday. i was not able to access most of the sites yesterday so i was not able to blog.

then... i have been busy with a lot of things and i am still overwhelmed by it.... i want to shift out of CCS already!!!! i admit.. i don't want to exert any effort in college and i want to graduate without any hassle at all.... or at least... i would be able to do what i like so much.... film and photography... i really really really want to shift to Communication Arts unfortunately... i can feel that my mom would just be frustrated if i tell her that and i only have one more year left before i graduate. it would definitely be a waste if i shift out of CCS... oh well

anyway... since the last time i blogged, a lot of things had happened... one of the most memorable experiences was being locked outside louie's condo on the open air wing.... we were 6... it was mark, ralph, averee, mikki, kel, and i..... we were there for 3 hours.... it was a really frustrating experience... on the other side was wale and marica... they got locked out of the room which has access to opening the lock to our side..... before our three hour stay trying to open the door with everything we've got... omar and the gang went there to help wale on the other side to open the door.... after we all got out, the boys immediately left... and they were pissed.

next experience was with Joline's birthday bash in Cenadu bar.... i got really really drunk and well... cried my heart out.... once again... to the gang.... it was more of a confirmation with all the things that they had thought about. went home at around 3 with a small hole in the lower part of my favorite pants due to the cigarette i was holding during the UBE session with them. CRAP!!! it was my favorite pair of jeans.... but i can still use it actually... since you won't notice it if you don't look at it closely... harharhar.....

and just when i thought that everything was going smoothly.... there were some misunderstanding with my statement yesterday to kim. my statement was somewhat just a joke. but i think the people involved somehow took it seriously and everything was a total disaster.... AAAARG!!!

to the people involved... I REALLY AM SORRY!!!!!!!! i don't know how this will end up tomorrow but i do hope that i can get this fixed.... i actually planned to leave already... never to show my face again... but ralph just told me... "Ikaw ang center ng issue and ikaw lang ang makaka ayos nito... tapos ngayon mo pa kami iiiwan..." So fine, I will fix this once and for all tomorrow... i told him that... but after tomorrow... i'm too ashamed to go back already.... One of the things i hate the most is for people to fight over something i have said... and that is just what I did... and i really hate myself for opening my stupid mouth....

Then i talked to Marga about it... and somehow, she was able to state that I am a quitter.... with i have been doing since forever.... I'm actually good at it..... she has been an inspiration to me lately... although i still don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow after everyone involved has talked about this issue... I was actually enjoying my time with those who were left in GP up until 8:30... and i really don't want to leave... however... being the pessimistic me... who is an extreme idealist and expect to much from people.... uhm... well.... i'm still considering to leave so that i will never have to hurt anyone or say anything bad in my barkada ever again since they are the only family i've got right now.

Our peer groups consists of people with different personalities... some I'm really scared of since so far i've known them to be good at holding grudges and pretend that everything is fine.... but whatever their personality is... i still and will always love my barkada... i really hope that this is just a phase....

"And to you my friend, I have managed to not even talk to you when not needed and somehow it has made me move on... sort of... well at least i can say that my world does not revolve around you anymore... it would still be nice if i can have you... but at the same time... i feel that by staying like this.. it would be better for the both of us.... I hope that you find that special someone of yours soon...

and to my other barkada.....

I've known you these past few weeks and I am really happy whatever the outcome of this event happening right now... i've told you already even before i really got to know you that i really meant everything that i said. we may not be that close but i have nothing to hide anymore... the things that happened last saturday during ina's debut was all i really needed to be happy and to take some thorns out from my heart. i hope to get a brighter tomorrow... and i know that i will... I REALLY WISH YOU THE BEST!!!! and make sure you don't get hurt the second time... harharhar....(now i am conscious with my words and i hope you don't interpret it as being sarcastic or what the way some had...)"

To everyone, I'm not the type of person who wants to see people fight over some stupid remark over by me.... I have to admit that I felt a bit relax that's why i said that statement last yesterday... It was really nothing and I somehow was not able to send the real message and was misunderstood... I don't like seeing people hurt... or at least.. getting hurt because of me...

I REALLY AM VERY SORRY FOR EVERYTHING....

2nd week of the term

i'm still here in the EA office since i don't have internet at home.... i don't know when our connection will be back... i can't do anything.. i can't do research.. upload pictures and everything....

anyway.. nothing much happened today except that i went to class and went to GP...

"i don't know what i should do but maybe it's just lust that i feel for you... love does not exist! especially in my case..."

it's been a while

so much for my blogging... i couldn't blog as much since we don't have internet at home... something is wrong with the telephone cable and it seems that it will take a little bit longer to fix....

anyway.. last thursday.. after i got home... sleepy and all... i just remembered that i forgot my keys so i couldn't get in the house and nobody was home so i walked to starbucks magallanes and just spent a few hours there until i am sure that evreyone was home already so that i could get in...

last friday.. i only had one class, so i spent my afternoon in GP.. waiting for someone who never came... oh well....

last saturday... i didn't have anything to do and was looking for people to invite to hang out with unfortunately.. i was not able to find someone who didn't have any plans at all... so i just went to the office in microsoft to look for people to spend time with... got really bored during the orientation of those who plan to volunteer for the vista launch.... after that... jove, riva, popoy, jolenz, rykiel, their friends and i just went to starbucks to hang out...

after a while.. we went to the park down g4 to have some chit chats... my cousin then texted me and asked me if i was available to look for chics... haha... unfortunately... we were not able to get any....

then i just had a change in perspective... and someone got really pissed when i told her most of the things that i plan to do... oh well...

sunday came and nothing really happened... didn't do much... i was a total bum...

tired and weary

so far for my thursday... i woke up at around 6:30am... but i got out of bed at around 7.. sort of.... i felt really tired and i'm not really used to having 8am classes... i got out of the house at around 7:45 already... by the time i got to the LRT station... there was a really long line on halt... i got really nervous coz i didn't want to be late on my COMPETH class...

i got to school at around 8:10 am in my watch and i literally ran from the LRT station to my building which was half way between Vito Cruz Station and Quirino station... i got to our room and the teacher still was not around. after a few minutes... jester announced that our professor won't be able to attend our class.... and it really irritated me since i could have spent a few more hours in bed... and i didn't have to run just to get to the class room on time....

after that, i invited jim and rech to go with me to greenplace... did some sort of bonding... well.. just chit chats.. haha.... went to class at 9:40... we had our first lesson and stuff.... it was dig-med and we just had some lecture.... then i went to my engltri class... it was sooooooooooooooooooooooo boring!!!! and i was really hungry by that time... out professor dismissed us exactly on time and i had only 10 mins to eat my lunch (which was kikiam) and smoke fast... after consuming my stick, i ran back in order not to be late on my stramis class... i shouldn't have hurried since it was not yet time after all.... anyway... we had fun in our stramis because we were grouped together and had 2 games for the whole period... went back to GP for 20 mins and back to gox again to attend my appsdev class...

appsdev still scares me because of what we need to do just to pass the freaking course!!! anyway... i was called during the recitation and well... sort of answered... anyway.. after that.. i decided to go to GP... on my way.. i met edgar and nene.... finally showed him the letter someone asked me to show him and burned it afterwards... he read it in GP... haha.... i did my part...

after that... edgar and nene immediately left since they still had some things to do... i went to our table and bought food.... i felt sleepy and decided to go home... i'm currently in the EA office one more doing this blog since i am not sure if i have internet connection at home already...

"maybe we are meant for each other, maybe we're not.. i don't really know... and i think that this time.. i really am finally learning to let you go.. i know i have stopped blaming you already for all the things i have done to myself because i couldn't accept the fact that.. well.. you must have not liked me at all... i'm actually looking forward to meeting someone new on saturday.... haha... i have to admit that i still want to see you but at the same time... it would not matter if i did see you or not...

i told someone yesterday that maybe if i get everything i need to make my move on you... i definitely well.. but as of now... i don't really plan to... but...i just realized that everything can change in a year... unexpected things can happen in a month... and life changing event could actually happen in a week.... so... well... i'm saying good luck to myself.. and i wish you all the best...."

wednesday shopping

i'm currently at the EA office of La Salle since i have internet connection problems at home. anyway... i woke up today @ around 10 because i agreed to assit jove in giving the medals to makati science... we were able to meet at around 12:30 at the Guadalupe MRT station. we went to maksci then i was able to talk to some of my formet teachers... we went to rockwell afterwards... i planned to buy a new pair of shoes today... although i only had a budget of 2000 or less.. and i was not able to buy there.. most of the items were more than php 3000...

we went to glorietta afterwards... we first went to starbucks in greenbelt 3 and just had some chit chat... at around 4... we started looking for shoes again... i was able to buy at the SM department store... FILA was on sale... i bought my pair of shoes in SM since they didn't have a bigger size in glorietta...

then jove had a meeting at six so she went back to la salle after that.. my mom and i had planned to buy some hosehold stuff today but she was still in ortigas and since it was averee's birthday today.. i decided to go to la salle to greet her....

i just came from GP actually... nyx couldn't make it since she had something academic related to do... anyway... that's just about it... i wil be going home in a while since i still have a lot of things to do... assignements for tomorrow... now that i have failed a subject.. i think it's time for me to take things seriously...

"i still like you and i wish i saw you today... but at the same time... i don't want to see you because........ aaarg!!!"

lessons learned

so much for the second day of classes... a lot of things happened today....

well, i went to school at around 8am to attend my first class... so far... i had no problems with my firt 4 classes... they need a lot of work but not as laborious as my MOBICOM and APPSDEV... for my COMPETH class, we will be doing research about computer ethics and some class presentation. i'll try to do my best in that one... next was my DIG-MED class, basically... we are going to do multimedia stuff... i can do good in that also... then my ENGLTRI class... we will be doing some research and do speeches.... i want to do good in that course as well... STRAMIS on the other hand tackles strategic management in IT... it will need some work but I'll try to do my best in that subject as well...

So far, those are the subjects that does not make me nervous... on the other hand... i feel scared with MOBICOM.. which will tackle mobile computing and A LOT OF PROGRAMMING... it would have been fine if it was only one subject... however... i also have APPSDEV in which we will also do some HARDCORE programming.... it just scares me because i am not a software technology major and i'm not equiped with the skills i need to pass those courses without exerting a tremendous amount of effort.... so basically... i'm in no place to cram... i hope that my starbucks planner would be enough for me to be able to work really hard on those two subjects...

anyway... by the end of my APPSDEV class.. i felt really weak... i had no idea what to do... it's really scary since most of the people i know.... even the GEEKAZOIDS planned to drop or already dropped MOBICOM.... i'm just scared.... i don't want to drop it anymore since i already failed one subject last term... and it would mean that i will be delayed if i drop it since i have no plans of getting a new subject in place of MOBICOM....

but i got really pissed with someone... well sort of... it was just mixed emotions... after APPSDEV and after talking to my friends... i went down in agno to smoke once again... due to the pressure i felt with the things i have to deal with this term.... then went to GP to say goodbye to some of my barkada there.... the girls were gone and the boys were playing billards....

i planned to go home already but nyx texted me... i planned to just go home and tell her i want to rest... but i saw her walking in agno and noticed that i was in a bad mood... well... i tried to not talk about it... but eventually... we decided to go to starbucks and just talk.... there are a lot of things that i discovered i never thought i would do to other people.... but was doing it.... again, it's about my love life...

"i don't know what to say... you don't know what i'm doing... nyx told me that in the things that i do.. i try to blame you... i never realized that until now... i'm a bit ashamed of the things i have done... nyx told me that it was just normal since i didn't know i was blaming everything on you already.... but i still feel ashamed about it... i admit... i envy you and the person you like... i always wish that it was me instead... i try to avoid you thinking that maybe i will forget about you... i actually thought that i have moved on a few weeks back... but i guess i haven't... i don't really know when i will move on... i wish it was that easy.... well, i assume you never liked me anyway and i have no right to blame you for all the things happening in my life... i'm really sorry... i try to use my head next time....

i promised myself that i would act mature and just be myself starting this year... i was not able to do that... i don't know why i can't accept the fact that you don't like me... but i am already trying... i actually don't know if i ever had and have a chance to gain your trust and your love... most of the things here are just assumptions... one sided... i can't ask you since... i don't think i am prepared with the things you are going to say.... i'm really scared...

i want to start all over again... i need to be mature at handling this... at least.. i will try... of course i'm an emotional person and most likely... my emotions might take over sometimes.... but i will really do my best... i want to be your friend... we started as good friends anyway... i want to win your heart by just being me...

but even if i wont get it... i will be happy for you... i was the last time... and i do really hope to meet the love of my life soon if it won't be you...

nyx does not believe in destiny and she told me that you choose your own destiny... and you will be the one to choose who will be the one for you.... and right now... i choose you... but i am not gonna expect you to choose me if you don't think i am the one for you..."

Anyway... going out of the heart related topic.... i'm just excited since it was my very first time to ride the new LRT train... nothing really special about it except for the fact that it's new and it was my first time riding it.... and also... well.. another things... i finally placed a mark at DLSU.. sports complex to be exact.. hahaha... i am one of those people who considers it as their territory as well....

Anyway... i want to thank nyx and eshie for a good conversation today... i should really focus on my academics right now.... i know i can do it.... i won't chicken out just like those who dropped MOBICOM....

first day of classes

a lot of things happened today... i woke up at around 10 and did my usuals.... went to school at around 12... i first went to GP... i saw the boys there playing billiards and stuff... at around 12:40... i went back to gox to check out the other people there and say my happy new year to them... my class started @ 12:50... it was MOBICOM.. the teacher looks a bit nice... and approachable in way... but the course... OMG!!!! scary... really!!! we have to do a lot of programming... oh well.. good luck with that...

anyway.. went back to GP... jove went there while waiting.. she had a meeting with the LSCS peeps... and i met budong... one of the cutest puppy i've ever seen... he is a mongrel... and he is sooooooooooooooooo cute...

after a while.. i went back to gox with jove to wash my hands and say hi to some of my EA friends... when i went inside the office... sir paul was there too... and we talked for a while... asked me how i was doing... we had a nice conversation... and i plan to do good this term for the office of external affairs...

did some cam whore with riva and the gang.... then went back to GP... i texted MC to go to green place... on my way.. i saw their text messages that they were on their way.... and i rushed to GP immediately...

they were in our old table near the entrace... we did a lot of cam whoring and we bought 2 orders of the GP juice (aka gin juice)... i got drunk and everything.. jove, andrew and nyx joined us in the later part... by around 5... mc, jim and andrew had to leave... then after a while... jim and mc went back... we did some more cam whoring and at around 6... mc, jim, jove and darwin left already....

nyx and i transferred to my barkada's table... and had some chit chats... and played with the very very cute dog.... did some cam whoring.... as usual...

nyx left at around 7... i walked her home... and had a brief conversation about what we were feeling with the persons we liked and hated....

went back to GP coz i was supposed to go home with mark and anya... we did some more cam whoring and went home at around 8:30... nico dropped us at dian, mark and i walked anya home... and she bought us hamburgers... thanks anya!!

after walking her home... mark and i waited for a jeepney to get to baranggay pio del pilar... then we walked to his street then i rode a jeepney going to my house...

when i got home... my mom... who is extremely kuripot... told me that we will be buying a new ref soon.... and talked about doing extra work to make our small home look nice.... anyway.. so much for that...

good luck on me tom.... my class will start at 8 and will end at 4:10... NO BREAKS!!! OOOOOHHHH MYYYYY GOOOOOOD (got this expression from the microsoft people)

last day of vacation

so much for my last day of vacation, woke up late and didn't do anything except tried to clear my email's inbox... i also forced myself to upload pictures in multiply.... i didn't want to because my internet connection still has problems.. in short... it sucked so there are times when my uploading would stop.... but then again... i really wanted to upload the pictures since they were already overdue... oh well....

my classes will start tomorrow. oh well.. wish me luck! i need a lot for this term... see ya!

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

feelings

i can't help but be envy of some people especially when they have everything that you ever wished for (not talking about material things... only a few can relate to what i am feeling right now)

i try to brainwash myself into thinking that time will come when i won't have to think of you and i will meet someone better than you. but i don't really know which signs are for me...

MC told me the other day that there are sayings that I should never forget and some that I shouldn't even think of... but how will I know which of these are really for me...

I get a lot of quotes bacause people send me forwarded SMS most of the time

"Giving up does not mean you're weak, instead, it makes you strong to let go of something important to you because love isn't what makes you complete. It's when you learn to be unselfish."
"Setting someone free is the hardest thing to do... but it's not the tears you cried that makes it so hard, it's the small piece of hope left inside your heart that someday, you'll still end up together."

-sent by Lou Wella

"Sabi nila, pag ayaw maraming dahilan, pag gusto maraming paraan, pero bakit ganoon? Ayaw mo na siyang mahalin pero wala kang DAHILAN. Gusto mo na siyang kalimutan pero wala kang PARAAN..."

-sent by Badette

"Sometimes, you have to just forget the rules, follow your heart and see where it takes you"
"Never apologize for saying what you feel 'cause that's like saying sorry for being real"
"Never regret anything you said or did 'cause at some point, it was what you wanted..."
"True strength is being able to hold it all together when everyone else is expecting you to fall apart"

-sent by Ana Bartolome

I still have a lot.. I just can't find them in my phone right now...

I got this from the microsoft philippines forums in our discussion area...

"love is all about taking the risk no matter what the consequences are. you dont necessarily court a girl simply because you are assured that she already loves you - that is playing safe."

"its just that everything is a learning process. at least you wont have regrets in the future and you wont have those 'what ifs' on mind."

-from Jogu

MC told me that I should waste my time thinking about everything i'm thinking... i should move on.... (i thought i have...) I guess I haven't....

even if i think that i deserve someone better... there is this part of me that says... "i still like you and want to make things work out between us"

I posted the whole lyrics of the song Everything you want by Vertical Horizon a couple of days back.... and so far... these are the lines that keep haunting me over and over again...

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

DSLU checklist (stolen from Mad)

(x) get caught by the DO
(x) wear inappropriate attire
(x) watch a UAAP la salle vs ateneo game live in araneta
(x) eat at AGNO (AGNO/COOKIE HOUSE/TGP)
(x) smoke at AGNO (AGNO/COOKIE HOUSE/TGP)
(x) hangout at AGNO (AGNO/COOKIE HOUSE/TGP)
(x) hangout at a friend's condo
(x) sing the alma mater
(x) swim at the olympic size swimming pool
( ) have class in all the buildings (Miguel, LS, SJ, Yuchengco, Velasco, Gokongwei, Mutien Marie, STRC, Sports Complex)
( ) use the football field
(x) hang out in ampitheater
(x) watch something during the u-break in the ampitheater
(x) cross enroll
( ) be a 1st honors dean's lister
(x) be a 2nd honors dean's lister
(x) get a 0.0
(x) get a 4.0 (except P.E and NSTP)
(x) eat in mcdonalds
(x) eat in UM
(x) eat somewhere outside near the campus (not fastfood)
( ) borrow/reserve something in the IMS
(x) get a major or minor offense
(x) go out with 5 or more blockmates during freshmen
(x) walk around the campus with 4 or more blockmates after freshmen
(x) cut a class together with blockmates
(x) beg for a higher grade during course card distribution
(x) adjust
(x) be active in an organization
(x) be a member of TAPAT or SANTUGON
(x) be stereotyped by others according to your college (CBE, COE, COS, CLA, CCS, CED)
(x) get an alarm sound when you scan your id
(x) talk to your LAMB aside from LPEP
(x) be deceived by the false names of professors in the on-line enrollment
( ) pay surcharge
(x) go to the chapel
(x) hear mass
(x) visit the museum
( ) know a xerox lady
( ) sleep in the library
( ) get to know mang jack in a not-so-happy way.
(x) get to know jenny
( ) got/given something to someone during the valentines week
(x) have a class after 6:00 pm
(x) talk about someone passing by while on a bench in SJ walk
(x) study in conservatory
(x) print somewhere near outside the campus
(x) type somewhere near outside the campus
(x) cram (sino bang hindi?)
(x) do a last minute paper
(x) date a lasallian
(x) have a crush on your blockmate
(x) have a crush on your classmate
(x) have a crush on your professor
( ) attend a seminar outside lasalle
(x) talk to a lasallian celebrity (model, actress, vj, etc.)
(x) sleep in a class
( ) have/had a lasallian girlfriend/boyfriend
(x) be in a conflict with a professor
(x) witness pda/pdpi inside the campus
(x) use a computer in the computer laboratories
(x) be drunk somewhere near outside the campus (GP of course!!!!)
( ) forget your ID at home
(x) get exempted from finals
(x) stay at school till 10:00 or later
(x) actually read a whole article in The Lasallian
( ) actually read a whole article in Plaridel
(x) took time to look at the 'Proudly Lasallian' stands in the campus
(x) thought that yuchengco restrooms are the best restrooms
(x) shifted / planned to shift
( ) read a whole book borrowed at the library
(x) eat inside the classroom
(x) get a text or call with your cellphone not in silent mode during class
(x) spend money for 1X1 ID pictures
( ) break something in the laboratory
( ) ask the library for an endorsement
(x) entered the thesis room in the library
(x) searched a professor in the DLSU website
( ) park in the beach
( ) park in Sports Complex
(x) eat siomai (inside or outside near the school)
(x) tasked to photocopy for a bunch of people
(x) enter a job fair in campus
(x) buy a raffle ticket, donate something, sign a signature campaign inside the campus
(x) sell raffle tickets, ask for donations, made people sign signature campaigns inside the campus
( ) watch something at night in the yuchengco theater
(x) make a video for a class project
(x) make a powerpoint presentation (duh!!!)
(x) give a very low evaluation to a professor
(x) eat inside the java cafe
(x) be pissed with a guard
(x) go to the clinic
(x) nearly reached / reached excess absences (always FA)
(x) pick a popular professor (infamous, cool, generous, cute) for a subject
(x) be the one to make the 'mass overload sound' in an elevator
(x) buy something in the bookstore
( ) lose your cellphone

microsoft saturday

so much for my saturday... i was supposed to have a meeting at microsoft at 9am in 6750 ayala avenue and i woke up at 9:45... i can't believe i overslept... so i hurriedly did my morning rituals and went to microsoft asap... i got there at around 10:30am and everybody were introducing themselves to each other... it was a really embarrasing experience...

everyone went back to the business they were doing after i was able to sit down... so the day went on... vista and 2007 office was demoed by the three stooges one by one... after that... we had our lunch...

after everyone was done with their meal, we had some picture taking in the reception area of microsoft and did plenty of cam whoring... haha.... after everybody got tired of taking pictures... well sort of... we had a game.

we were grouped into 4 teams and were tasked to name the stores in the picture that they provided... we had some sort of amazing race thingy.... we went all over glorietta and parksquare...

we were really tired after the game. my team was in 2nd place. after everyone has settled down... the awarding came in...

after everything.... some went home already and some went to moa to watch the pyro olympics... tin, rd, aids and i went down to 4th floor to smoke (aids didn't smoke, he just accompanied us). has some chit chats and went back up again... jin, issa and the others were still in the game room... so i just checked my email there and did some more cam whoring... haha....

at the end of it all... issa, jin, kent and i went to north park to eat... then had some discussions... and went home...

last night out before start of classes for the year

*sigh* I just got home... well.. so much for out MOA night out... supposedly we were to party at Prince of Jaipur in MOA last night... but there was just too many people there.... due to the pyro olympics thing.... as in there were A LOT!!!!!!

anyway... there was heavy traffic going to MOA and it took me around 30 mins to get there.... when i got there... my barkada sent me a text message that we will be partying at greenbelt instead.. and it really pissed me off... sort of... since there were so many people and going to greenbelt would really be hassle for me....

anyway... since everyone else was waiting for a taxi, i decided to take a jeepney going to MRT and then rode a bus going to ayala... I got there at around 10pm already.... i left the house at around 8:45... aaarg!!!!

I hurriedly went to kroc grill and found them there eating and drinking beer already... since i haven't eaten supper, they offered me their left overs... and since it was still clean... i didn't hesistate anymore... we did a lot of cam whoring and stuff.... anya and i did A LOT of cam whoring... hahaha....

at around 12... we went to Temple Bar already... and since moi had some friends there.... we were reserved a seat at the VIP room... nothing special about it except that you could smoke and it wasn't as crowded as the dance floor....

i will be posting pictures in my multiply soon....

i had to leave at around 1:20 since my mom is again angry already coz i told her that i will be home by 1...

anyway... i got home at around 1:40... and.. practically.. that's it...

so much for the last night out before school starts for 2007....

i saw kevin cortez, my former blockmate in DLSU by the way... and when i left... only Wale, Marica and Anya were left... Moi and the others went home before i did...

so much for friday

anyway... i did nothing today... i thought that i was supposed to visit my godmother but i don't think she was available today... anyway... i tried to do a temporary fix in my cabinet and tried to rid my room of trash.... so far.. it's somewhat clean....

anyway... i wil be preparing in a while to go to MOA to party with my barkada... although they haven't texted me as to where to meet and everything.... oh well...

another long day for me

i just finished eating lunch... and checking out ms forums... anyway... i was supposed to finish cleaning my room today... but i wasn't able to since i dedicated my time to sleeping... i'll try to do it after posting this entry and then buy hinges for my cabinet. i'm still waiting for my godmother's reply if we are going to my other godmother this afternoon/evening... after that... i'll be going to MOA for my 6th time to party with my friends at prince of jaipur....

i actually haven't formally asked my mom permission but i will probably later.... oh well...

change topic...

i see a lot of signs on whether i should go for it or not.... but i don't know which one really is a sign for that... i'm confused....

what's in my head right now

I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.but i like you.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.but i like you.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.but i like you.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.but i like you.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.but i like you.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER.

blockmates hang out thursday

didn't do much today... JP and I had planned to go malling or something so we decided to go to MOA today... Jove tagged along.... that.. I was aware of a few days back already... I was surprised to see Sean with them when I met them at Starbucks near the IMAX theater...

Since Jove was already hungry... we decided to look for a place to eat... We went inside the mall and went to the food court... and since i didn't have cash, jove lent me some money and agreed that I will be the one to pay for her drink in Starbucks later since that was where i planned all of us to hang out while waiting for the sunset....

Anyway, after the food court, I just found out that JP had no intention to go anywhere near starbucks... i don't know why so sean suggested that we go to "Baang Coffee" instead... I had no idea where and what that was but I thought of maybe giving it a try...

It was just down the stairs from where we were and so we went there... Sean was friends with the owner of the store and so we decided to buy our drinks there instead... And as a bonus, the 4 of us were given priviledge cards by the owner... and we owe it all to sean.. hehe... did a little bit of cam whoring and some chit chats... I liked the drink I ordered, by the way... it was Death by Chocolate... and it was so creamy and rich and I loved it.. hehe.... *chocolate lover here and also a sweetooth* I also plan to introduce the coffee shop to my other friends... it was nice there... the ambiance was relaxing.. the music was mellow and i had a great time there... Sean also introduced the owner, Steve, to us and had a little chit chat... hehe....

Anyway, at around 6... we started to move around MOA and did some more cam whoring... we checked out some stores and window shopped... by 7:45... JP and sean had to leave. jove and i stayed for a while to do some UBE and check out the tech stores in MOA... did some more cam whoring and by 9, we had to leave already... got a cab and went to DLSU... after going down the taxi, i decided to stay a little bit longer so Jove and I went to agno... had some more UBE then by 10.. i had to leave already since my mom sent me a SMS to go home early at around 8...

got home at around 10:30 and she was as usual frustrated with me again... and as usual i didn't mind it.. haha... she asked me to bring something to my aunts house and I agreed... when I got to my aunt's house... i gave my cousin the things my mom asked me to give to her and had some chit chat with my aunt... had another "sermon" about what happened to me last term and why I failed my accounting course... i told her the truth and i said it was related to love life... gave me some sermon about that and told me to stop my smoking and drinking habit... well.. i did plan to quit it this year and i told her that... hehe... I know I am a better person now and I don't need those things anymore... although i still find it hard since it has become a habit but I'm sure I will soon be able to ditch my vices by summer...

There are still a lot of things going inside my head especially with the things that had happened last year... but... well... we will see what 2007 has instored for me....

"Everything You Want" by Vertical Horizon

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

[Chorus]

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

last wednesday before classes start

anyway, yesterday... i was at W grill with wale and company. we didn't really have any plans... i just woke up at around 12 and read all of my text messages. louie sent me a message that he and his family will be going to manila. and so i immediately replied that i can go to la salle after lunch.

i did my usual morning rituals and ate lunch at home. then i went to la salle at around 2. i met louie at agno. so much for my smoking abstinence.... after we talked for a while, we went inside gox to talk to the academic assistant to ask if he is still eligible to enroll for next term having reached the limit of failed courses during his whole stay in DLSU. We tried very hard to try and make the academic assistant say yes unfortunately... there wasn't anything that we could do and he was ineligible to enroll for next term and he will be studying in Olongapo next school year... damn!!!!

anyway.. Wale was also around and so we met up at U-mall with marica. Had a little chit chat then decided to go to G4... louie couldn't go with us since his whole family went to manila with him. During our chit chat, he talked to his dad on the phone and told him that the academic assistant did not allow him to enroll in DLSU anymore... so his dad went to DLSU... he had to meet him and so we parted ways already... I was with marica and wale and got a cab to get to G4...

by the time we got there, ponch and sam were already there... the four of them ate at wendy's then smoked some more in G4... after that... we went to W grill... averee got there by around 5 and so did mark chua with kenneth... his new boyfriend...

i had to leave at around 7 since my mom was in greenbelt already with her friends to have dinner... i pitched in to have free supper.. haha...

anyway... my mom and i went home at around 10...

today, i got a SMS from Ian... he invited me to hang out in G4... i told him i will be at G4 after lunch... around 2... but i got there around 3pm already... on my way to G4.. i saw him walking across with Anya, Christo and Dha...

We went to W grill and Ian treated us 2 buckets of Red Horse... Anya had to leave at around 4 and only the four of us we left... Ian had to leave by 6 so he paid the bill...

Outside W grill, we said our goodbyes to Ian and then saw James going somewhere... we called him up and he joined the 3 of us, Christo, Dha and I.. We all went to G4 to hang out again... I don't have cash anymore so I just bought a drink and some bread at Starbucks using me credit card once more... *my mom is really going to kill me*

anyway.. had some chit chats with dha's friends... we went home at around 8...

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1st day of the year

so much for 2006....

anyway, i woke up at around 12 nn today... i slept at around 3 i guess... i was talking to jan marc on the phone... we also had our UBE...

anyway... i want welcome 2007 with a smile... although the last part of 2006 really changed my life... now... i'm sure i am going to have worse situations in the future... but... i should know that everything will just be trials and will help me be a better person.

classes will resume next week and i have one week to enjoy my vacation. so far, i feel confused once again with my feelings... it weird.. i thought i moved on already and all that shit... everything in my life is so complicated right now...

i hope 2007 will be a good year for me.... i feel that it will be but it's too early to tell....

oh well

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!!